I am working hard on detaching and GAL. I have been counting my blessings and praying so much. I realize there are people that have it so much worse than I do relationship wise. He stopped over last night and it was very awkward but civil. He even ate some pasta I had made the kids and told me boy this pasta is really good....What???? Is this cake eating?? But I also saw how my kids came in the room where he was and they all just sat and watched a tv show together. And I totally get the whole NC thing but how will he see changes if he isn't around... So many questions. I know bottom line also I have to protect myself and my kids financially and make sure we have a roof over our heads. Looking into a loan modification for the mortgage and waiting on a decision for some help from SSI. I feel like once the lawyer gets involved and it goes "legal" that will be the end of it period. So that is where my many jumbled thoughts are right now. All over the place. Again I wish I could see you all in person and give you all big hugs. You are such a comfort to me and I appreciate the honesty about the things you tell me. I need to hear everything good and bad. Going to go work on keeping busy. Thank you.
