I took day off yesterday didn't tell W. Went to vaca house and out on boat. I left my chart maps out and she noticed. She asked me "did you goto vaca house today" I said yup. She was like you did. You took another day off. I said yup. All positive. It spiked my anxiety a little when she asked me but I know why. Fear of her being upset but I slapped myself out of it and said so what. I don't need to tell her. She doesn't speak to me and she feels smothered so not going to tell her every detail of my life.
Yesterday she was definitely talking to me more. I didn't initiate any conversations. Haven't in two days. Outside kid and house stuff.
This morning she brought up a camp out and asked me to go with S. I said absolutely.
We are suppose to go out tonight as a couple. Planned months ago before her withdrawing. Going to go with the flow on this one. Tickets are bought see what she says.
This will be 3rd day not initiating any conversation. certainly helps my anxiety not being rejected. When she does talk I try not to be sucked in.
Even though she was being nice last night I went out and did GAL. Went off to the open mic. this time I got up and belted out some of my originals. met some new peeps. It was cool.
