Waking up the last few mornings alone, getting the kids D7 S5 ready for school. Staying strong for the kids is so difficult. Just looking at their innocent beautiful faces knowing they have no idea whats going on just breaks my heart. They will be literally crushed if this marriage ends.
I'm just so confused. Everything was going great. Then we got that text Monday night from OMW and W reverts back to "things aren't going well, I'm still not attracted to you". Its almost like she's running away because of possible guilt and fear. It reminds me of time of BD. I found out she had kissed another man, a week later I suspected it was our mutual friend so I asked her. She denied it but immediately told me her feelings for me had changed. Then a week later when I caught her texting him and found our it actually was our mutual friend she immediately gave me the ILYBINILWY speech and said she thought we should separate.
Haven't had any serious talk with W since Monday night when I told her "to go". She's slept at our mutual best friends across the street the last few nights and working from home thru the day. We've seen each other a couple times coming and leaving house. She asks me how I am, if there's anything should could do for me, asks me for a hug etc.
I was hoping to give her some time and space to collect her thoughts. At this point she may be checked out but I'm not sure. I'm not sure if I should have the talk with her about what she wants now or if I should give it more time. Her best friend who she's been sleeping at is also a very close friend of mine. She's also confused how we got back hear and shares my concerns. She doesn't think W has tried hard enough and we should give it more time. I'm not sure how much of that she's saying to my W. To make matters even more complicated my W sister is/was married to this same best friends brother. And W best friend is not happy that she didn't try harder as well. They have 2 little kids (so my W and my W best friend share a niece and nephew).
W is now at her sisters all weekend. Her 30 year old sister who just left her husband because she just wasn't attracted to him anymore. UGGHHH.
No idea what to do, what to say or when to say it.
I just want my wife back. I want to wake up from this bad dream.
M-38 W-32 D7, S4 M-10 BD-May '12 S for 1 month-June '12 Reconcile, Piecing
