Hello, I have posted before on this topic and I have a whole sitch in I need support. But i guess we were always peicing. Aren't we always peicing something? Our friends, family, our lives our love? I though that this time would be different. Tha we could make the R go forward enough that we would never have to be here. I have rotating feelings. I feel angry and resentful when I think about how much I have sacficed and little she sees that. I feelsad and lonely when she sees that I am being angry and doinga poor job at hiding it. I feel lost and confused when she turns away form me in bed or doesn't want to give me a kiss. I feel so many things and out of all those things one feeling pemiates, I don not wnat to lose this woman. No matter how hard it gets or what I have to do I know I am meant for her and she for me. I am trying to give her spavce but it oftens seems like I am giving her a free ticket to do whatever she wants. I don't wnt her to hinkl that she gave it a try and she still feels like she is caged but at the same time I don't want her to feel like there isn't anyhthing between us anymore. I am so confused? She talks about the future with eachother inderectly and directly but I don't know hat she is thnnking I don't know if it time fro a temperature check? Ite feels like there is a huge gulf between us at times and I am afraid to ask how she is doing, beacuaes her thing with me is the fact that I am too needy at times and need constant reassurnace. What a I need to know is some techniques for me to stop the negative thiking and then being so needy. I am a bad actor when it comes to this. I wear my emotions pretty much all over my sleeve. She hasn' asked for a D but I feel that I am pushing her that way with out meaning to? Help. Please.
