Crazy little thing called MLC

[Raine]

T i sure hope its minor. My bomb shelter is pretty shattered. How did you react in front of W about the PA? It seems like in private you had a hard time but in front of her you were pretty validating. When stuff comes up it feels strange to stifle a reaction. If I was on the other side and he acted like that, I would think he didn't care.

AJ, You'll make millions on that shirt! I want one. Thank you so much for sharing your story. You said what I needed to hear. I feel strong, but I also feel like my thoughts are all over the map.

Oh he is moving in. He has two friends (his close buds from the neighborhood that he dropped from his life) lined up with a truck to help him. I think the only thing that could stop him is me. But we'll soon find out. He seems super happy about it. Grabbing boxes, asking me questions about cleaning it before leaving and what he should use. Today he has been the old H in every possible way. It's scary. He is his happy self, and really attentive to me. I don't know how many times I was ask it I was okay or needed something. He also just did things without asking.

Tonight was a soccer party (families included) for S6. I asked H earlier if he was coming and he said he hadn't planned on it, no. I said okay no problem. Just checking. He then says, unless you need help? I said nope I'm good. So fast forward and H shows up home 45mins before we need to leave. He was really helpful with the boys, but most the time I was helping S2 with the slide or playing ball, and letting H talk. That's one of my 180s. I think H got stuck looking after the youngest or wildest in these settings too often.

I kid you not--H talked about me the whole time with other people, from the sushi I liked in Hawaii four years ago to the house in the neighborhood we wanted to buy if it ever goes up for sale. Not talking about our S with hardly anyone has made social settings way easier and if we ever did get back together, no awkwardness there.

So there it is. Another unpredictable day crossed off the calendar. I'm good. Kids are good. Life is good!