Let me make sure I understand you. She said she IS going to MC next week with me. But you said that she is not. I dont understand why you said this. Did you misread the post and if not, why do you say she is not.
--What do I want?--
Im a stander so I would like the R to progress in a positive way obviously.
Expectations (for me) from MC is to learn to cope with situation and work on myself. To recognize what I did to contribute to this crisis so that I dont repeat them again. I would like her to be able to open up and work through her feelings about our R. Also, I would like her to be able to open up to the counselor so that we may begin to work on resolving our issues.
My expectations as far as S is concerned right now? She is done with me. She is unhappy with me and she is uncomfortable (her words) around me. I dont have a lot of hope that she will come out of the fog anytime soon. That lack of hope allows me to better detach. I am not fully detached yet but I get closer everyday. I have more "good emotional days" than "bad days" too.
It does scare me a bit that I am getting more comfortable with my situation. Maybe I just accept the fact that I am only in control of myself and my 50% on the M and R. I have accepted the fact that I can only do so much DBing. The rest is her decision. I am comforted in the fact that I now know what to do regarding DBing and I dont expect anything from her.
I can DB and GAL but thats about it. I dont have the best handle on all the DBing but I know that is all I can do for now.
I am getting better everyday with GAL. I am becoming much more social while I am at work and while I am out and about. I am having lots of fun with my kids now too. I do so much more with them than I have ever done. They are my inspiration.
