Not New to This Anymore

[steveh27]

Thanks Sarge and Tallula - Yeah the W is pushing this fast. She ended up going to the mediation w/o me and brought home all the paperwork. I will most likely go to the next one to ask some questions, but I certainly don't want any of this work or help for that matter. I have come to the reality that this is the way its going to be. I looked at apartments yesterday online in the area and started thinking logistically how to handle the kids with school and splitting time.

I have brought my mental state to a point where I dont know who she is or where she went. It's the only thing I can explain and comprehend to myself right now. So I'm just giving in and letting her go. The fight is not in me as if I fight anymore I'm just going to end up hurting more. I have went to a survival mode if you will and since she decided to start thinking of only herself about 4 months ago, its time I get myself up to speed to this thinking.

I have a friends Bachelor party tonight. I said to the W that she needed to take S14 to his 8:00pm baseball game. And she said "and where are you going". I just said I have to go out. She asked if I took care of who would watch the girls. I said no, but it didn't matter when you went out 3 nights in a row and I didnt give you a hard time. She could care less where Im going. We have been "chippy" the last couple days with little remarks, so it was just more of the same. I went upstairs to get ready for work.

I came back down and said I have 30 min before going to work and I asked if she wanted to go over the mediation worksheets productively. She said do you promise to do this nicely. I said sure if you are able to also with out making comments. So we actually did make it 30 min working through alot of the custody schedule and support/maintenance and such. She is being gracious on her maintenance as far as I know. Although the child support is staying the same even though we are sharing 50/50. So not sure if that is her way of saying she is giving me a break but hiding the extra back in the child support for joint custody.