Crazy little thing called MLC

[Raine]

That he got one of them pregnant. That would be worse. "It" being they had an abortion. My imagination could and is going wild, but that was the thought that came to mind like a lightning bolt and stuck. I just want to blurt it out at him and ask. This whole "I can't talk about it," and "I'll tell you at some point" is so dang childish. It sure keeps me roped in.

I think I'm kidding myself that I'm done with him, and the reality is I still want that chance at reconnection with a new version of him. And maybe I need to imagine the worse to keep me from bending on what I want.