things went south

[BC39]

I'm going to have to talk to in the next few days.

I still want to fight for my marriage, but she might say she done and I'm scared as hell for that.

One of my thoughts yesterday was to tell her I'm letting her go. Then hoping she re-acts like she did in October and have another awakening. My fear is that I push her away forever.

I would like to be the one takes the power to make the decisions at this point but how do I word this conversation with her when still want her to stay?

Not sure any of this makes sense.