We had to put one of our cats down this past weekend...she was my meditation cat, W's rescued "feral cat", so it was very hard on us all. The younger boys were heartbroken, she had just the last year or two become comfortable with them. We don't know what happened, the vet seemed to think it was some poisoning from herbicide, rodent control thing or anti-freeze. Very tough for all of us.
So we are recovering from that, things were pretty status-quo. W has made some "action steps" the past couple days, seeing the ob/gyn/hormone docs, looking for a good therapist for her issues and MC. So I am sitting quietly, waiting to see what all transpires, what all moves, or doesn't.
Just trying to be the best me I can, waiting for the answers that may come. Still will file if needed, but I am in no hurry (though I do set goals for myself to keep me on track with things I don't want to do, and then evaluate at that time...).
I don't want to speculate whether this latest with our cat was any kind of change agent for W, too early and really, how could I know unless W tells me? It was a bit of a change agent for me, I haven't had to do this in a while, and it reminded me of the cyclical nature of life, and to try to get the most out of each day with who you care about, and all you care about. Everything passes.
Okay, got myself in a teary state now, time for a walk down the RR tracks... T^2
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
