LW...Your not whiny, you are hurting. As I do feel so much empathy for you and your sitch. I wish I could wave a wand and take away the pain and guilt you are feeling. But these are times where our true selves are tested.

You are a strong woman. You can and will overcome this. And trust me....I know its easy to keep saying this, but it does get easier...detach and get a life. At this point your M is drowning. but you cant save both yourself, and your H. Like a good lifeguard, you have to save yourself first before you attempt to save anyone else.

Me-45,W-36
M-12 yrs, T-15 years
SS- 16
Nov 2003 Initial B date, 2-3 others since
EA/PA OM 2003-2004
Reconciled 2004
May 2013 Final BD, W completely detaches
W files D June 2013
I am moving out 26 July 2013