Childhood living is easy to do, The things you wanted I bought them for you. Graceless lady, you know who I am, You know I can't let you slide through my hands.
Wild horses couldn't drag me away, Wild, wild horses, couldn't drag me away.
I watched you suffer a dull aching pain, Now you've decided to show me the same. But no sweeping exits or offstage lines, Could make me feel bitter or treat you unkind.
Wild horses couldn't drag me away Wild, wild horses, couldn't drag me away
I know I've dreamed you a sin and a lie, I have my freedom, but I don't have much time. Faith has been broken, tears must be cried, Let's do some living after we die.
Wild horses couldn't drag me away, Wild, wild horses, we'll ride them some day.
Wild horses couldn't drag me away, Wild, wild horses, we'll ride them some day.
The good:
W is still in our home, doesn't talk about leaving or D. No fighting or spewing. No OM. (it seems) No big spending. Her depression lifts at times. Our families still know nothing about our sitch. My personal life outside the M is going fine. W tells me about her times out with friends/FB interactions SHE'S planning a resort getaway for our 30th Anniversary.
The not so good:
W is still cool and indifferent. W is still in the guest bed. Physical contact is pretty much zilch. I don't know how long I can hold out.
Tonight W went out for drinks with GF after work today. Came home and told me all about it. How GF met up with a guy friend who wishes he could be her BF. (I've heard this one before... it seems all her man friends wish they could have her, but none are good enough for her) Also how her X-BF is stalking her, trying to get back together. How he asks for hugs and she tells him no. (Note to self: DON'T ask for hugs!)
My company has been expanding and my department getting new equipment and a complete makeover. It's all very exciting!
The TKD class I've been instructing at my work got extended for two more weeks. My students are loving it and thank me after every class. This class has caused quite a stir, and REALLY helped me feel great about myself.
Thank you to all my fellow DB'ers who have helped me to hold back the wild horses this long!
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl
