My mother is dying. XW wants to be my friend.

[tadpole1025]

Thanks everyone. Mom seems to be in good spirits. I mentioned the treatments above to her and she told me that she would be open to anything. She has a meeting with her doctor next week to discuss treatment options. She is upbeat. She says that she is fine with whatever the outcome might be.

As for me, I just don't know. To be honest, sometimes I feel like just throwing in the towel. I mean, I just don't know. Life just seems like one loss after another. I'm tired of losing.

The situation with my mom has actually taken some of my energy off of my sitch, but things still are bothering me. I think it is because her wedding is now just two weeks away. I guess in two weeks, my story here will come to an end and I will be declared the loser.

She is still bragging all over FB and it bothers me. It shouldn't but it does. I know, it has been over 2 and a half years. I just wish everything would just stop. Go ahead, tell me how pathetic I am....I know.

Lately, I have some really good days, but maybe I'm not as far along as I thought. The anxiety isn't as frequent, but it is twice as bad when I do have it.

I came on here today to vent, but I really don't have much more to say except that mom is doing well, X is doing FABULOUS and I'm just......here.