I guess if we think of their behavior in terms of acting like a teenager, it makes some sense. Wanting that approval from "mom", but caring more about their peer's approval.
And Raine, there may very well be times where he wants me to say no to something. Sorry, but that is not my place. I'm not going to make his decisions for him, and he's not going to use me as an excuse for something he doesn't want to do. He needs to learn to speak up for himself and say no. I really hope that he will.
You are right rH, they need to not let other people have so much power over them. Meanwhile, they obsess about us trying to control them.
Thanks for your encouraging words, I look forward to a day where my hurt starts to recede. I want that wound to heal so badly. Not gonna happen in limbo.
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H very tired again after work. He's been looking real run down lately.
I went to yoga and had a great session. It's become one of my outlets I depend on to help release stress and clear my mind.
Before yoga, H was tired but nice. We ate dinner as a family. I noticed him checking me out a few times.
After yoga, seems a switch was flipped. He was in a bad mood. Didn't even look at me. Finally speaks to me, and asks if it would be okay if he met a friend who is in town for a week on Friday. He said he knows that's my yoga night, but that maybe I could have my parents watch boys since they always offer. I told him I would ask them.
He got a shower, then seemed to be in a better mood, more relaxed. Was chatty with me. Even walked around naked a bit in bedroom after shower (the modesty has slowly been going away).
I'm guessing OW wants to see him Friday, and he was stressing about it. Doing my best to get out of the way...
Pressure keeps building, he keeps not sleeping, health issues worsening...
Yep, those winds of change are swirling outside. I just keep on keepin on
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
