I have some calls in to lawyers to see what all my options are and I am trying to see if there is any kind of free counseling I could go to. Like I have said before he has spent everything on the junkie whore. We have nothing. Do you want to know the really really messed up part??? I keep wondering if I have any hope at all as far as this monster ever waking up and realizing what he has done?? why am I like this???
