MLC step by step...what's next?

[Lilith]

Thanks wfm and KD!

KD, yes I am GALing as much as I can. I have no problem with activities for GAL 'coz I have and do plenty of it. To name: I follow Salsa dance lessons (Tues. and Wed.) I run 3xweek (Monday, Thurs and Sat.) I go out with a friend to movies or an afternoon tea or shopping. I go swim once in awhile if I like to... I also have some hobbies like photography and jewelry making. But inspite of all those activities...the time in between these activities and my work or at the end of the day...I can't help myself but think of H (and OW)

Journaling:
Today H and I went together to a funeral. It felt so weird especially seeing some friends and people who knew about our sitch and seeing "us" together. At one point H introduced me to someone as "my wife"....I was speechless for a moment but it surely nice to hear.
On our way back to the office, we had a nice talk... about our son, work, the weather etc. then all of the sudden...his phone!!
He got a text message, he read it (while driving) and then smiled...I was bit annoyed and before I realized it, I've said what I shouldn't have! I said something like "You can call "her" or text her if it can't wait and just pretend I'm not here" (sounding sarcastic & jealous!) H became defensive and told me to stop ...he told me who texted him and whats its all about. I was embarrassed and immediately apologized. We did not talk much after that.

(Sorry about my english...I hope my story is understandable enough. It's quite difficult to express and explain things....
my excuses!)