During what I'm calling my h's lull, he is experimenting ( I don't know what else to call it) maybe peeking into his life w me, and somewhat the kids. I thinks it's easier for him to be more invested w me, after all I'm the one he invested in at the top.
He's laughing, buying chocolate, calling in at work, redoing half my kitchen w perfectionism, and showering to ML at the end of the day! Ok, yea, I gave in, hell I'm a girl, we just wanna have fun, right!
It was awkward, lack of passion is the best description. His ED messes w his head and he overpowered the OTC med. For me it was familiar and safe, which always puts a girl to ease!
I'm watching Netflix seasons of Gray's Anatomy, if you've seen it you know, and I have gotten more anxiety watching the electricity between to characters than w H in a long time. There aren't any butterflies! I know if I am invested in this, give it time, it's not even a true beginning to me, maybe to him, but I am only considering my opinion for now!
For now I am watching from the sideline, even though I'm there, I'm a visitor!
How are you and h doing! Is he your best bud all of a sudden, working hard for you to pat him on the back, or selflessly? At least he mows the lawn, he's back to some sence of self and care for something that's both of yours! He is doing this stuff w you in mind, think about it, you could mow your own lawn, or he could have hired someone!
I don't know Nero! Are we receptive because we want to be, or like all this MLC time, were just DBing?
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The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
