Yes, really I do have compassion for H. How sad to not know what you want in life at 50. I know what I want. I know happiness. I want my H happy. I still love him so. Is it wrong to want him happy with us? H is confused is what I want to believe.

I want to tell H that I am not doing this D. He has said before why would I want him to do something he doesn't want to do(stay married) Well, He asking me to do something that I don't want-D.
We will just have to stay separated for now. I want back in limbo! Perhaps I am hanging on because of my fears

M48 H50
M21 T26
S20 at college),S17,D15-cp, dev. delay- cogniv 5yrs old
PA confirmed 7/2012
H separates 9/2012
H move home 2/13& 7/13 lasted 2weeks.ILYNILWY
OW still in picture. h filed 10/13