Lost her love or MLC?

[Alias71]

Well, the WAS moved out into the other bedroom but I feel the dynamics have changed for the better. I hope that this feeling stays.

Feeling gutted as I wanted to go out tomorrow to an English coffee club but my younger daughter has a concert. It's such a shame it's on the same day but it can't be helped. (I may go the cinema or swimming the next day instead. I need to go into town at some point to get passport photos so I may coincide it with that. It won't be the same because I'll be doing it alone but better something than nothing)

My mood swings from feeling "happy" to feeling incredibly sad every few minutes at present. It's quite surreal. I don't know what to make of it. Perhaps the thought of my marriage disappearing further down the plughole mixed with the possibilities that comes from being "single".

Loving and "hating" someone is strange. I don't know how long I can hold on for. I miss human touch so much and yet I know that I won't be any good for anyone at the moment. I do feel so incredibly alone but I do know that I feel stronger now than I have done for a long time. I got lazy in my relationship with my wife and allowed my personal growth to stagnate. I hid behind my wife and now I'm slowing learning to come out of the shadows. It is scary but quite exciting at the same time.

The W is off to her interview soon. I just hope, hope, hope she gets the job.