I suppose if I continually experienced failure and frustration over a period of years, yeah, I'd say I'd feel exactly as you do.
What's the point of your post, CeMar? You have it worse? Your misery is far more acute and much deeper than mine? You think I have options, and you don't? What?
Like I have said to you before, if your self-worth and self-love is so dependent upon another person's actions/feelings, and that person's actions and feelings are making you miserable, you either need to make sure they HEAR you when you tell them they are hurting you, and if they don't care or can't change, then get the hell out for your own survival.
The main reasons you don't want to get out of your marriage is becuase you think you will have to turn over to your ex-wife most of your money/possessions, you think your wife will get full-custody of your kids, and you'll miss them, and you think you might be in some deep sh!t with the big JC over breaking your marriage vow.
Do you notice the common thread there? It's all about YOU. What you'd lose, what you'd miss, how hard it would be for YOU. So instead of going that route, you stay in your relationship, resenting the hell out of your wife because YOU don't want to, or can't find it in yourself, to communicate with your her... 'cuz YOU just don't do that, you're just not made that way, you just can't find it in you... you, you, you.
Well you must be really uncomfortable and miserable in that corner that YOU painted yourself into.
