Not confused...trying to keep hope alive!!!

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Hey Portia,

Thanks for checking in on me...I am still here.

After last weeks events of finding how much happened with H, OW, and my boys, I had to take a break and let it all go...

I enjoyed my holiday weekend with my boys, some friends, and family. S9's birthday was also Memorial Day this year, so now he will be S10.

I really don't have much to report. h asked me last week if I contacted mediator, which I told him yes. He was suppose to make an appointment, but I have not heard about it. H went missing all weekend, dropped off sons birthday present at my job on Friday, called and spoke to only s10 for five minutes Monday...and today he couldn't make it to my s14 last Pop Concert of the year.

So, after last week, I just kinda threw H on the back burner. The kids and I had a great weekend, even though on the little exhausting side. I have tried to keep up with everyone's sitches, but am slightly behind. The break has done me wonders mentally and emotionally and has helped with detaching even more.

There is nothing I can do except roll with the punches where H is considered, all other aspects of my life seem back on track including work.

IMO, now that OW and the truth is out there with my boys, I feel like a weight has been lifted and things are seen more clearly not just by me, but by everyone else too!

My PMA is up, I have felt like myself again, and the kids seem happier honestly. I am eating more regularly and sleeping a little bit better. The saying the truth will set you free has become my reality I guess.

Sorry to ramble, but I did so much this weekend, that I am running on little energy...there were things that happened, but nothing that would shock anybody on this board and nothing that I stressed over. (Finally)!

So, another day down, the rest of my life to go...and I am feeling really good about it. Goodnight everyone!