Wendylon, Busting and Subguy, thank you for the encouragement about the book. I don't think I can tell you the name of it bc of the rules of the board, but I will tell you when it's released so you have a higher prob of finding it.
Ruby and Busting, about the mail: I will mail him the most recent docs the lawyer sent (retirement acct distribution is not over yet)and will keep his other mail a few more weeks...
I emailed him and honestly expressed how I am too hurt by his past and current behavior to want to see him. He replied with the typical "I am sorry you feel this way" instead of owning up to his actions and apologizing. But if he were at that level of wisdom and awareness, we wouldn't have ended up divorced anyway. I don't think I should reply, because anything I say will stir negative feelings and I don't want that. But heck, I have thought about a million witty replies! :-)
The more I think about this, the more I realize how it's a blessing to have him out of my life. I've remembered a lot of the emotional abuse I was subject to for years. He basically buried the true Tori and made her a fearful and insecure woman. But now true Tori has come out, and she's here to stay. I get pretty angry when the memories come back, but I am able to tame the negative emotions a lot faster. I'm choosing to see Joe as someone who is not and didn't act out of malice, but out of pure ignorance. This is a man who does not know what love is and who has a concept of life that will keep him living at ordinary levels of awareness. I am starting to live an extraordinary life.
Today I did this super fun program at our local aquarium in which you can be a trainer for a day! I worked with whales, sea lions, penguins, rays, and other animals. Fed them and everything! I'm putting the D cash to good use. Will have to watch the finances, though :-)
I am thinking I will do one more thread so I can keep you updated on the book. Plus your support makes such a difference in my life.
