Swimming Upstream Against the Current

[RosaLinda]

Reminded me that there are always more sides to a story than mine and that what I think is happening is not necessarily happening. And then I remind myself that it does not really matter to ME because the only bit that matters is what is going on in my life and my reality. He has chosen not to be with me or to work on us. Repeat, repeat and repeat.

This is true. I've often learned afterwards that the thing I was SO horribly upset about was not actually happening at all. And the opposite is true too, i've been obliviously, happily paddling my little raft down the stream, only to hit the rapids and learn I'd both dropped the paddle AND developed a leak.

Keep working on making yourself happy, Portia. I think we all must accept that our R as we knew it is over, dead. We can work towards having a new improved R someday, but we will not be the same people we were, and neither will our SOs. Who knows what shape their heads will be in when they finally escape the tunnel, but we know what we'll be like after surviving this. Strong, confident, fabulous. A person only a fool would want to leave. 

Maybe I'll pick up The Affair too, sounds interesting. An old movie was on TV before, "Come Live With Me." Heddy Lemar was this Austrian illegal immigrant, whom Jimmy Stewart married so she could stay in the country. In a couple of months she asked for a divorce so she could marry the man she really loved. I said gee, I bet that happens all the time, and my H immediately turned on the news. Hehehe