MLC by MIL death/daughter car accident/new job

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Journaling - Just feeling pretty good about my life and direction I've chosen with my D. She actually told me today that she likes our new life in Florida and really can't imagine living our life back home in Ohio.

His impending visit this weekend has me on edge. Although I will NOT see him, its just his presence around our S and D that's got me all worked up. And some decisions regarding my D care. She would rather I take care of things (getting her ready in morning, hair, shower, bowel routine, getting ready for bed, etc) but I want him to do it. And in doing so it makes D uncomfortable. And I have to pack up her stuff and equipment when all it would take is for me to do it.

I keep thinking stay away go "dark" but then I think how nice it would be for all of us if he and my S stayed here at my place and I made dinner and etc. Not ready for that and too much of expectation especially since his return from long trip in Europe with OW.

I keep hoping the trip with her made him realize that she's just temporary bandaide and that she annoys the hell out of him!! LOL!! But as with expectations I'm sure it brought them closer together. Everytime I see a couple holding hands, hugging, even kissing all I can think of is them.

In fact, while eating lunch outside restaurant patio we watched a couple making out by the woman's car door. Obvisously an affair. It was discusting to watch. That I kept thinking about the two of them again.

Sounds like I'm obsessing. But I'm not really. I put the stop sign up and refocus. Put all the blocks up in why he is the way he is and how he's treated me and disrespected me throught this whole process.

Trying to detatch. Still need advice (see above posts)