Thanks for asking rH! I've been meaning to post, but just haven't.

No real change here. W keeps acting relatively normal except physically. She went out of town this weekend with two couples who are mutual friends. I wasn't invited so it hurt pretty bad. She met them in a big city about 200 miles away. She drove through there going to college and several times since. Day she left she asked me if id taken her there and how to get there. I had to laugh. The interstate goes right through it. There's no planning to it, and she's been there no less than 25 times in her life.

She still talks about future stuff all the time. Yesterday it was planning a Disney trip for us next February. Things like that are wearing on me. It's so bizarre!

Me and the boys are staying busy. Riding dirt bikes, car shows, baseball, swimming (today-first time this year), church. Still loving the new truck.

This weekend we are headed to the beach. Just the four of us. I'm anxious about it. I'm sure I'm putting more pressure on myself to make it perfect. I have no idea what to expect. Sleeping arrangements and such.

She found out I'm taking an AD, and seemed thrilled by that. I think she believes I'm numbing myself too. But, I'm not. Just trying to manage. S9 started one last weekend. W knows its mainly because of our situation. Nothing I can do about that. S9 seems to be doing better.

Its been 5 months since she moved out. I miss her as much as I did day one. I miss holding her. We always had so much fun in the summer smile. Are you feeling me FY? (no pun intended).

Glad to see things are still going ok with you rH. I know it's bumpy but roller coasters can't just flatten out. What fun would that be!

M - 42
W- 37
S's - 9,6
M-12
T-14
FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011
ILYBNILWY - march '12
FIL - died jan '13
W Moved out week later