H & I have had to communicate our Ds schedule. I am having to work late & H didn't want to pick up the girls to take them to church camp. He has no excuse to not be able to. He simply just does not want to do it. He finally agreed, but is leaving them at daycare until he absolutely has to pick them up in time to drop them at church. This hurts me for some reason?
I think I'm to the point that I just want him to leave the house & let us be. I do not want to be the one to tell him to go. I want him to go if he cannot be the dad he says he is being while living at our house as a married couple. He doesn't see how he is acting with our daughters on a day to day basis. There is no way I can explain it to him either. He's so shut off & not rational.
Would it be bad to ask him if he's thought anymore about his "decision" & if he's still planning on leaving? Since BD I have not been the one to initiate any of these talks & don't know if I should start? It's confusing, I want there to be some sort of closure, but I don't want him gone really either? I know that contradicts what I said above. I guess I'm just having a hard time today & just want closure to something, anything.
Days like today is when I get frustrated & start wanting to send that letter to OW. I know it won't help & I won't do it, but geez I want to.
M 34 H 35 D 7 D 6 M 10 T 14 Pregnant w/ boy/girl twins-due 12/2013 BD 12/15/12
