It has been a little rough but I am slowly starting to feel better.
It is strange how situations in life set us back from our "normal lives". I am getting back into my regular routine and once I get there, I can also start working on me with much more intesity. Does that make sense? I think I made the mistake of thinking I could just jump into "improving myself" without rebuilding the foundation I needed to stand on. Another lesson learned. One of so many!
Nothing new to report. I picked up a book (fiction) called The Affair, Colette Freidmen is the author, I think. It tells the story of the BD over the course of a few days in three perspectives - the BS, the H and the mistress. Goodness knows why I was drawn to that book, but there you are. The strange thing was that the mistress' name was the same as OW in my sitch. Yech. it actually was not a bad book and quite close to my experience in terms of emotions, etc. Interesting to see the different perspectives, too.
Reminded me that there are always more sides to a story than mine and that what I think is happening is not necessarily happening. And then I remind myself that it does not really matter to ME because the only bit that matters is what is going on in my life and my reality. He has chosen not to be with me or to work on us. Repeat, repeat and repeat.
