Thank you Bond.... I will stay dim, as planned. I think for the most part he is basically not liking my dim, and stomping his feet. But, that doesn't change anything. He is playing it back on me to hurt or get back at me. I think this is where I am not supposed to take the bait.
I have been such a "business" person with him more and more each day. I do not even ask personal stuff at all. I try to be perky, upbeat & sounding busy, getting off phone, helpful, etc.
I have been monitoring how my going dim has been affecting him. He has noticed and mentioned it a few times. I can tell he isn't liking it, but any other way I dont think he will respect me or see what he is losing. He is a very stubborn person. But, if I want him to pursue me, isn't this the ONLY way?
Bond, I went to my first co-d meeting last night. 1st night was just understanding the program, next week hopefully I will learn more about me. My friend was there, he was shocked to see an unhappy, lack of confidence, broken wfm. This is not at all who I AM! I don't let h see THAT anymore. I hope he can't see any of that, because I know it makes him want to run away from me.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
