i dunno PON... wouldn't her snooping be considered as caring enough to enquire?
I went to the meeting last night. First night is information night, next week I might actually learn something. I ran into an old friend there too, he is having issues in his marriage too. Nice to see him and feel less alone. He is a good person. Please read my thread and comment, if you can.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
WFM I almost feel she is snooping for reasons to be offended or trying to catch me doing something so she can say see. I am dropping the rope on this one. I can't prove she did. It just seems highly suspicious that it was marked read and I never read it. Then I think though she smart enough to go in and mark as unread again. I possibly could have click on it by accident but seems highly doubtful. Either way it doesn't matter. I spoke nothing but honesty in there and did not put my W down. I am doing my work in those emails by journaling and getting stuff out.
That is really GREAT you had the courage to go to the meeting. I might try for Thursday night Al anon and open mic. I'll swing by your thread.
I have a tough time detaching on certain days. I then let my own anxiety (did she read my email) rule me. Like I said she was silent to me before. I spoke with my ACoA sponsor in great detail and she helped me let go
I understand.... having difficulty detaching today as well.
What are some things that ACoA sponsor said that helped u to let go? I need to understand more. My anxiety is getting me today!
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
Wfm you really just need to detach. Going dim/dark going to anger him at first but your detaching for you . Stop acting out of fear. I can say these things because I do the same things
really?... so continue to go dim/dark for me, regardless of how its affecting him? who cares about his anger or that he doesn't like it? or that he is going to do it back to me?... such a game!
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
ohhh... and as for the meeting, I almost talked myself out of it. I really didnt want to go. Felt like a hypocrite using the church/God for personal gain. The program is very religious based, but sounds like the end result will still be helpful. I will know more next week when I force myself to go again.
I really *hate* that there is a problem. I am embarrassed of my situation and small community. Didn't want people to know.
As for your email. Maybe you hit the button by mistake. I guess we will never know. Im very excited for you about open mic. I grew up with ALOT of music around me. My dad has 15 guitars, so I understand the passion. Keep it up!
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
