To me this doesn't see like putting W on a pedestal, it appears to be making her the fall guy for your shortcomings.
No. I knew I wouldn't explain it right the first time...more like: expecting her to cover for my shortcomings, which she did, for a long time. Riding on her coattails.
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what are you going to change based on what you read?
At least 3 things, 1.My priorities: God, others, self. 2.My beliefs: This trial will somehow turn out for good, (and here's the hard part) regardless of the outcome. I do not believe this yet. But, up to now I have not even wanted to. I have insisted to myself that if my marriage is over than there can not be happiness in my future. My major project now is to program this in my head and heart. 3. My actions. After so long I feel like I am finally beginning, a tiny tiny bit, to detach. I have been resisting it all the way, as you know.
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having words you want to say to W it sounds like you are still trying to change her.
ill address this after I do some re-reading!
Me 46 W 43 S 21 D 18 S 17 M 22 yrs Discovered OM 9/10/12 W moved to sister's 9/15/12 W moved to OM 9/27/12 Tried to DB until 7/13 W filed 10/7/13. Did not serve. I counter filed 12/2/13.
