I'm with you on the physical thing. Yesterday was a day I did not want to be in the same room with W for whatever reason. So I made myself busy with the kids and after that, when I was tired, I went upstairs to the kids' area and watched TV up there instead of downstairs.

W eventually found me. In my head I'm thinking "grrr...just want to rest and not deal with you right now. Remember all those times when you said you had days where you couldn't even LOOK at me? Well...*I* have those days too." That's what's going on in my mind, but all of a sudden my biology starts kicking in and I'm all revved up. Crazy!

I ended up disengaging by going to the grocer to pick up the last few things so I could grill out. Told the D's they were welcome to come along if they want. They all went with me and we had a great time at the store.

I "backslide" easily too when it comes to touch, and she knows it. Make her off limits. You are not allowed to initiate touch. Make it a game for yourself. Say it to yourself: "I will not initiate contact." Do you have enough willpower to win that game?

-PM

M:12y - BD:12/11 - D:6/13 - 4Ds

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy." -MLK Jr.