In some ways I put my W on a pedestal. Thoughts like "I'm really screwing up but W is SO good, SO moral, SO faithful...so PERFECT, everything will be OK". I never said those words probably, but in hindsight I think that was my mindset.
I was relying on her to be good enough for both of us.
To me this doesn't see like putting W on a pedestal, it appears to be making her the fall guy for your shortcomings.
I'm glad you got a lot out of your reading but what are you going to change based on what you read? By having words you want to say to W it sounds like you are still trying to change her.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
