first time(&last) & still need help

[albamarie]

You and I are at the lull, that's what I'm gonna call it, the lull of time when they see its not so fun anymore! My H said it! Time has taken its toll, they don't feel comfortable yet returning, but are not content on the other side either! OP eventually come with a dose of reality!

We stand during their lull to see where they will eventually return, but remember, you have the finale say here, he has lost most of his fight! I may be just standing to be in control of my own destiny, and not feel as if I was forced out!

Even if he did return, the damage is great, but in my case the damage is mostly verbal, I can forgive a brief A when it is asked of me in true sincerity! If it is shown me that forgiveness is really being sought for the sake of healing, I would forgive! The verbal abuse is in the end words, words not really even executed, but the ranting of a man in pain and hatefulness for himself.

What I have a hard time with is trust that this would not happen again if life doesn't act according to the MLCers rules! Also, I'm not that content young girl he married happy to be in his arms and F**** the rest of the world! I am coming out of this changed as well, I want what the original H could never give me.

Nero, they let us down, is there coming back from that? Our two awkward H's who don't know what they ever really wanted. We are stable in our thoughts we know what we want, we want stability number one, yes! How do we pin down two guys that both say they are not content living one way?

I'm gonna get some wine, I love Mescoto, nice and sweet! Stay cool like I know your are!