glad things are okay. i know what you mean- too much knowledge now maybe. i am unclear still about what I would like if i could have a choice.
i cannot imagine getting to know someone else like this ever again. it sounds dopey out loud- it makes me tired to think about. i know tho- it's fun and easy when you've got it going on- so i'm hoping if the chance ever does occur- i will go for it and have a good time.
i'm just tired now- and it makes me not even want to think about something controversial like dating.
h has been working on garage roof - almost done. glad it won't leak- i just don't care about it tho. the bit about seven days and gone is still insulting i think- i'm not sufferin - i'm offended tho on a general basis.
i guess i'm just like that- you're either with me or against me. not so much inbetrween room. h has been pleasant- no fights or anything. i wouldn't say actual expression of fondness- but absence of revulsion (in bed) maybe. cripes- what a sad commentry on life around here.!!
did some garden work- enjoyed weekend all things being considered. i don't know what else. i get what you're saying. i wonder too- would it ever be nice and just able to feel secure and trust this guy- knowing that old not-h is there lurking inside somewhere?
might just queer the whole dea l - forever.
i guess now that i'm here- i don't have much to say really- just hello and glad you're perking along.
it's a weird - limbo like state - isn't it??? oh well- since my brain decided the other nite that i need to try and achieve some sort of peacefulness inside - whether i know what i'm doing or not. Not of course- but it shouldn't matter really.
i need to chill out- this is no way to live all jacked up all the time.
anyway- so maybe i'll have some good luck with that- remaining calm-ish. working helps- just makes me tired and occupied.
wonder what i can find to do in summer - now that i kind of like this- but it will end with school - cripes!!!
i'm outta here- just having a sip of wine and doing nothing for a few minutes.
