But I also know the power of God and The free will.
So step back and let him do His thing.
The bigest thing here and why i think I am stuck and always thinking about my W is I feel that if i dont continue to try then there really is not chance. But I know in my head but my heart says to try.
Letting go and moving on are not the same thing. This is where you have to learn the difference.
the other is this moving out not by my choice is hard. i have come so far and now im going back to my dads. I truly fear more than anyone knows that i will get worse there and just not look for a place. But only God know this.
If you let things get to you they will. If you let things get to you they will.
I also feel that I will now be starting all over again. the few i have meet over here on this side of the Hudson river i will loss contact with. Also not having the W family stop by from time to time will hurt. It is like life is changing all around me. I can tell you I have been in this spot before but only from drug use. im 27 years clean so I know i can do this with Gods help it is just Im for some reason stuck. and worried.
There are worse things than starting over. There is no reason you can't visit with your friends. What will stop family from stopping by? WTG on the 27 years clean. That is an incredible accomplishment.
I know i keep saying down things but that seems like all i have. I will look for the book and read it. I also just have such an unbelief that this has happen to me.
Read the book. Thoroughly. You must change your thought patterns. You have to change your perspective.
the one that would not stop saying how much she loves me and now nothing.
All our spouses said the same thing. You are not in an exclusive club.
but i guess this is why im seeing 2 therapists on close to home and the DB coach. i need to stop worrying about am i doing the correct thing for the end means of having W come back. maybe see 2 theropists is not a good thing some times i get 2 diff sets of things to do. it is just DB is getting hard to pay for. but i need that hope. but DB also said she does not know what to do so just no contact at this point. that's what im working on.
Two therapists can be confusing. I will tell you what I was told here... work on yourself before you work on your M. Until you are okay with you it doesn't matter about your M.
I just get so lonely for the Girls touch
I understand that feeling. I miss my W sleeping next to me, too.
“Things turn out best for the people who make the best out of the way things turn out” ― Art Linkletter
