"I don't know what I have to "look forward to" - but I guess that's no different than most on this board. I don't know what an official diagnosis of H would be... I have a zillion theories. But things were "good" for such a short while, and so long ago, that I really don't hold out much hope for that. I would "settle" for honesty, integrity, compassion, consideration. I would "like" also patience, interest in who I am, and not to have to listen to nastiness regarding gender, race, religion etc. I would "love" to have a squirt gun fight, dance in the kitchen and hold hands at the breakfast table."
I pray you'll get what you would settle for MzJay (honesty, integrity, compassion, and consideration are the BASICS for any R, unfortunately MLCer aren't very truthful, kind or considerate are they!), what you would like (patience, interest in who you are, and not to having to listen to nastiness also seem kind of basic), AND what you would love -- fun and a loving R.
I know how hard it is for you, you are truly the Queen of Standers. And I respect you SO much for it.
You deserve happiness, peace and love. Hopefully that lug nut brain you are married to wakes up and smartens up. But if not, you have done SO much work on yourself and will be a wonderful wife to some one else who can give you the love and respect you deserve.
