Just a minute ago I walk away and leave my phone on the table. When I get back she's checking my Facebook. That would be grounds for justifiable homicide if the reverse happened.
B!WAHAHAHA! So true!
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So sure, I'm supposed to stay right where she left me.
I feel like that sometimes too. " Okay, honey, you stay here while mama runs into the beauty parlor, and here's a quarter to play Pac-Man." haha
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T^2 I know you're a song man. (Love 38 Special btw). I've had two on my brain lately. "Since you've been gone"-The Outfield, and "Love will find a way"-Yes
The Yes song has my favorite line when they say "love wil find a way. If you want it to." Love is a choice. This whole mlc stuff has convinced me of that.
I'm a classic rock fan myself and I'm always surprised by how relevant some song lyrics are. It might be a bit of reverse engineering (the solution awaiting the problem), but I know I can always read some deep meaning into lyrics.
Not long ago, all I could keep singing was, "I'm FREEEEEEEE, free FALLLLINNNNNG!!!!" But then my W told me to can it, so now I just hum inaudibly, lol.
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M41 W42 M 12 T 15 S10, D9, twin Ds 3 1/2 BD 1/2/2013 Living as roommates Working on D agreement w. mediator 5/13
Been thinking about you and wondering how things are going.
rH
Me54/H47 '08 H is "done" March '12 H moved out Brink of D, December '12 2014 totally reconciled! ...... "I firmly believe in the...absolute possibility of marriage renewal." Jim Conway
Thanks for asking rH! I've been meaning to post, but just haven't.
No real change here. W keeps acting relatively normal except physically. She went out of town this weekend with two couples who are mutual friends. I wasn't invited so it hurt pretty bad. She met them in a big city about 200 miles away. She drove through there going to college and several times since. Day she left she asked me if id taken her there and how to get there. I had to laugh. The interstate goes right through it. There's no planning to it, and she's been there no less than 25 times in her life.
She still talks about future stuff all the time. Yesterday it was planning a Disney trip for us next February. Things like that are wearing on me. It's so bizarre!
Me and the boys are staying busy. Riding dirt bikes, car shows, baseball, swimming (today-first time this year), church. Still loving the new truck.
This weekend we are headed to the beach. Just the four of us. I'm anxious about it. I'm sure I'm putting more pressure on myself to make it perfect. I have no idea what to expect. Sleeping arrangements and such.
She found out I'm taking an AD, and seemed thrilled by that. I think she believes I'm numbing myself too. But, I'm not. Just trying to manage. S9 started one last weekend. W knows its mainly because of our situation. Nothing I can do about that. S9 seems to be doing better.
Its been 5 months since she moved out. I miss her as much as I did day one. I miss holding her. We always had so much fun in the summer . Are you feeling me FY? (no pun intended).
Glad to see things are still going ok with you rH. I know it's bumpy but roller coasters can't just flatten out. What fun would that be!
M - 42 W- 37 S's - 9,6 M-12 T-14 FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011 ILYBNILWY - march '12 FIL - died jan '13 W Moved out week later
You are doing great, everytime I read your posts I take away inspiration from them, I wish I could be the cool customer you are. Speaking of that, when she talks about going to Disney, what do you say? Beyond bizarre, it begs temperature checking and doesn't sound like you are.
CB
Me; 42, W; 43 M; 16 yrs S12, D9
3/13 - "I want to move to XYZ City (four hours away) and it might be without you, not sure" 5/13 - "Not sure I meant that"
Mtnman, Your post is full of good activity. You are active and involving your boys, which is really good. I'm glad the truck ended up being a good fit!
I understand about how much you miss her. Especially since she is always around and you two laugh and joke and plan trips together!
It seems she has to try a few more things out yet -- such as the trip to the city without you. Maybe she was asking directions b/c she feels unsure without you, yet was ready to try this by herself.
I'm glad the AD's are available to help smooth out emotions for you and S9. It's quite a rough trip at times!
Thinking of you, rH
Me54/H47 '08 H is "done" March '12 H moved out Brink of D, December '12 2014 totally reconciled! ...... "I firmly believe in the...absolute possibility of marriage renewal." Jim Conway
rH, she depends on me for so much. I'm sure she knows it will be really hard without me. She looks at me as a father figure in so many ways. But, I don't want her to stay out of fear or security. At least not long term.
I don't know what triggers the transition, but I can't wait until she is attracted to me again.
M - 42 W- 37 S's - 9,6 M-12 T-14 FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011 ILYBNILWY - march '12 FIL - died jan '13 W Moved out week later
Hi everyone! Tomorrow W, Ss, and I head to the beach for a week. It's going to be a real test for me. I so want the S's to have a great time. And w and I too, of course. Please pray for us all. Me especially to keep my expectations at zero. And my nerves as I have to look at w in her bathing suit all week .
M - 42 W- 37 S's - 9,6 M-12 T-14 FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011 ILYBNILWY - march '12 FIL - died jan '13 W Moved out week later
. Are you feeling me FY? (no pun intended).
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