Mine came up with the same thing. His business failures were all my fault; I was a horrible person, etc.
This, after he initially kept apologising for being such a failure and a scumbag.
Somehow, he managed to turn it all around and blame me for everything.
You'll hear the same thing over and over the more you read on here.
Do NOT take it personally.
This stuff does hurt so bad that it's hard to believe you can survive.
But you will; we are here for you and we know what it's like.
Please understand that it does get better with time, but it hurts so much and is so fair in the meantime.
Try to take back some control where you can. This certainly helped me to feel better. Get some advice about your financial sitch and take care of yourself as well as you can.
Right now, get some sleep too. You are right, this is totally exhausting and you need to recognise the importance of nurturing yourself.
You have an important job to do: looking after yourself and your kids in this very hard time. You can do it.
