Not sure which of the options I am capable of. For now, I guess the last option is my direction as I do not know any other lifestyle.
As an outsider, which would you choose?
What steps does one take to really let go of the R? Am I not doing it yet?
Journalling:
Again, another Sunday. (Thank God for friends, who keep me busy). Not sure how to fill my time on these kinds of days. I no longer have the routine of my former life to direct me. My Friend dragged me to church this morning, the message was about forgiveness. I cried. We prayed. Then we went for breakfast & a hike around the lake. Came back, joined other friends on the street & was able to guide a friend through her problems. Went for a walk with her. Now, here with DD & Mom. Sundays (like most other days are sad & lonely). I am trying so hard.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
