He was here today to get the rest of his things and told me details about the skank junkie he is with now. He actually sold his truck to pay for rehab for her. $1500 that was supposed to fix our central air. And he is buying cigarettes and diapers for her 2 and 3 year olds. WHAT???? He can't even be man enough to parent his own children. He won't even deal face to face with his own kids. He also went on to tell me what an awful person I was for the last 20 years and how I had everything and I threw it all away. Now I am reliving everything I ever did wrong and what if I did screw it all up and it is my fault?? How can it hurt this bad and yet I am still breathing??? He gets to get in his car and drive away to his happy skank junkie perfect life and I am here to deal with everything and try to reason with my kids about an unreasonable situation. It hurts so bad and just keeps hurting more. I am so very tired.... Thanks for listening..
