Let's be honest - I'm a super emotional person. I can't have really deep conversations with people and not care about them instantly. I don't do acquaintances very well. When I connect like that - I instantly want to get to know them more, spend more time with them.
Does that mean contact with them all the time... no... but I don't feel like x and I can even hang out. Like suggesting it would be me chasing her.
Fear that she may actually want to intimate an R - Not really.
Fear of only being friends? That's what i would prefer right now.
Worse Fear - That she hasn't really changed after all. Fear that when things get uncomfortable or too tough - she will stop all contact again.
Or that she will put me down... OR that she will push me away.
I don't have those fears with everyone I meet. But she has given me reason.
So I'm trying to protect myself from that. I'm just not sure how I can do that and be true to myself... other than to not talk to her.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
