I feel so helpless and hopeless.It's been 15 months since H left and I still feel this way at times.
I made a choice in April not to play "happy family" and I don't know where to go next. Up until that point we would go out to eat as a family, sometimes spend weekend days together and spend holidays together.When H would come over to see the kids, we would have conversations about work,world events,etc.
At Easter, we spent the day together as a "family." I approached H about being intimate and he said I made him uncomfortable and just wanted to leave. I thought in my head "the go," but didn't say it.He said "this is nice how it is.Let's just leave it at that."
That's when I decided to myself (but not say it out loud to him) to stop playing like everything was normal and we were a family in almost all aspects except that he doesn't live with us and there is no physical contact between H and I.
Now we he comes to see or get the kids, I feel like strangers...
