Thank you everyone for your comments and support. Reading everyone's encouragement is a constant source of stress relief for me!
You are so right about trust rH! There isn't a day that goes by where I don't think about how I could ever trust my H again after all the lies, deceit, and hurt. Trust means so much in a R, and there is NONE right now. I guess that's not completely true. I trust that he loves the boys. But me - I think he would back stab and hurt me in an instant to make himself feel better.
But he is definitely watching me. Some days I feel like all he is going to see is my back as I walk away from him and all the damage he's done.
I love the "Private Eyes" reference!
Linda, you asked how low the OW can get? Ummm, I don't think much lower. I consider her worthless trash lying in a gutter. Maybe that's harsh. I don't really care.
And believe me, we haven't heard the last about That Woman. In fact, I'm sure her final act and curtain call will be quite entertaining. Don't worry, I'll give the details!
It is difficult with our H's health problems. I know how much he struggles with it. The physical stuff is tough enough, but the emotional aspect can be heartbreaking.
And as for replay, I don't think my H ever came out and went back in. In retrospect, he slowly worked his way into it, then hit it hard about a year ago. I can see him slowly working his way out of it. But he's definitely still in there, no doubt.
UW, I am always playing back your words in my head. One foot in, one foot out. Could it really be true that his jello brain is thinking??? One can hope...
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So I notice H has another new golf shirt that mysteriously has appeared from no where. I say nothing.
He knew that I saw it and washed it because it was hanging up. So he asks me, how do you like my new shirt? I say it's nice. He claims he bought it when he was out the other day. I totally don't buy that, but really don't care anymore!
So guess what he wears for "golf" today? Bingo, his new shirt! I knew he would, so predictable...
It's after 10:30, no word from him. Golfing in the dark lol?!?!
In some ways, they both can be predictable. Remember the new shirt at Easter? It's like she so insecure, she needs to dress him too. Pathetic.
Took boys out to dinner and to bookstore tonight. It was fun . H's loss...
Good night
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
. H's loss...
