The drive inside me is always there for a lot of things. But i need to figure out how to redirect some of that drive and focouse it on me. That has always been something i have been told is im always out trying to help others and give give give W even said that one time.
I get the drive thing with wanting know know were she lives. Im trying to work on that. Ok so Here is a feeling I have I have been dealing with.
The feeling/Thought is as of today I have not told anyone where I am going to stay. All I have said is that i do not have a place to go yet.just hard to find a place that will take a dog. But I feel like i do not want anyone to know my location. I even feel like changing my phone number. this way everyone will say where did I go? maybe make her think more. Is that stupid or what? I just do not want to loss the contact i do have with my stepdaughter. she even calls me her stepdad. She has come a long way and she has been relying on me for someone to talk to to help help her everything.
But i still want to or feel like just making it look like i dropped off the face of the earth. I will be staying at my dads for a while and it is on the other side of the river. meaning a place she would not even look and away from her for me not to run in to her as often. But I am looking to buy a house now and it will be in the area of where she was is whatever. i like this area a lot and the houses are priced nice..
