T and RH thank you so much. I dont know where I'd be without you. I don't know what to do now. I do need to see a lawyer. I don't know about filing or how to handle me back tracking if I don't. He should file. I'm not ready to date but ready to change the finances. I just think doing so means he will fully date OW. I don't know what in doing or feeling. Why can't I just let him go and move on? I need to figure things out. I want to ask him what he wants, why he still has one foot here when he clearly doesn't want me.

I need to tell him I can't be his friend at the end of this. I also want to tell him the following in regards to all his attacks on me as that being the reason we separated:
I take ownership for all the things I did wrong. But I take ownership for all I did right, and that far outweighs the wrong. I was a great wife. Reading the five love languages--I was already doing them all to one degree or another. I could do many things better and I'm not making excuses for that. In the same vein I know of the things where you failed, where you could have done better, but the good far outweighs the bad, and that's what I choose to focus on. I take ownership for the things I did wrong, but I won't take ownership or blame for yours. I am not the cause of your mistakes.


M38,H39
M:16Y
BD:8/12
OWDB:11/12
S:11/12-5/13
"Temp" home:6/13
OW dropped:9/13
"I love you":12/13
H ring on:2/14
Depression back:5/15
"I'm done:" 7/15
H moved out: 3/16
H moved back: 12/16
Working on us: 3/17