T and RH thank you so much. I dont know where I'd be without you. I don't know what to do now. I do need to see a lawyer. I don't know about filing or how to handle me back tracking if I don't. He should file. I'm not ready to date but ready to change the finances. I just think doing so means he will fully date OW. I don't know what in doing or feeling. Why can't I just let him go and move on? I need to figure things out. I want to ask him what he wants, why he still has one foot here when he clearly doesn't want me.
I need to tell him I can't be his friend at the end of this. I also want to tell him the following in regards to all his attacks on me as that being the reason we separated: I take ownership for all the things I did wrong. But I take ownership for all I did right, and that far outweighs the wrong. I was a great wife. Reading the five love languages--I was already doing them all to one degree or another. I could do many things better and I'm not making excuses for that. In the same vein I know of the things where you failed, where you could have done better, but the good far outweighs the bad, and that's what I choose to focus on. I take ownership for the things I did wrong, but I won't take ownership or blame for yours. I am not the cause of your mistakes.
M38,H39 M:16Y BD:8/12 OWDB:11/12 S:11/12-5/13 "Temp" home:6/13 OW dropped:9/13 "I love you":12/13 H ring on:2/14 Depression back:5/15 "I'm done:" 7/15 H moved out: 3/16 H moved back: 12/16 Working on us: 3/17