Trying to stay in it, keeps getting harder. #3

[in_it]

I've been thinking a lot about what Reality said about "protecting" H. I never saw it that way. The more I think about it, the more I think I'm holding it back to protect myself. I'm scared of his reaction & rejection. Which in turn tells me I'm no where close to where I thought I was mentally. It's hard to admit fear.

I may be strong and take quite a bit, but I'm not where I thought I was.

Back to the drawing board…