GM, I'm very sorry to hear that the latest round of chemo failed. Did they say what type of drug they'll try next and will it be stronger than what she's been getting? I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. It's never easy when you are dealing w/a serious illness.
Why did your h handle the situation the way he did? Because he's in crisis and his coping skills aren't worth a plug nickle. He had already left the marriage emotionally 12-24 months prior to dropping the bomb on you and that's why leaving didn't affect him the way it did you, i.e., shock, etc.
Your h is not capable of handling anything, but most importantly, he can't even take care of himself. So, how could he insure that that the lives of his family was stablized when he was bouncing off the wall emotionally and mentally himself? It's never easy when someone walks out the door and leaves behind a spouse and children. Don't expect him to step up to the plate any time soon. He's just too far out there and all into himself these days. Responsbilities have gone out the window for a while.
You are right about one thing, You need to take care of yourself first in order to take care of your children and be supportive of your mother during this time. Please do not look too far ahead. The new medication may work. We need to continue praying and hope for the best.
Please take are of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
