Aw, what a dichotomy, PM. The sweet gesture of making her b-day special on the one hand, and the sad fact of signing the D papers. My heart goes out to you, buddy.
How are you holding up? You seem fairly positive, challenges notwithstanding, so that's good.
Despite my DBing efforts, it seems as if my D will be finalized by the end of the summer. But I'm oddly at peace. I say oddly, because (obviously) it isn't what I want and it's most decidedly not what's best for my kids. Still, my DB work has helped me focus on myself and reconnect with the P4L I used to know and love. Everybody I've been coming into contact with (except STBXW, obviously, lol) tells me how much they admire my PMA and how much fun I am to be around. I really hope that you've reached that point in your own sitch!
I've been following your thread for a while now and I'm really rooting for you, amigo.
Stay positive and be well.
P4L.
M41 W42 M 12 T 15 S10, D9, twin Ds 3 1/2 BD 1/2/2013 Living as roommates Working on D agreement w. mediator 5/13