I love my children so much, and am thankful for them being at an age where I can still shelter them (mostly) from the ugliness in life (such as what has been going on with their father). But I know there will come a time when that will end. Not ready for that...
Yes, I am not going to lie, it is very hard. My son had a very difficult life before all this. I thought this would break him. And while he was derailed by it, I know that he has an incredible amount of strength and courage and pray each day he finds his way. And it doesnt stop me from wanting things to be easier for him. His life is such a struggle. I continue to be in awe of the amazing person he is.
You are lucky to have people in your life whom you love and admire so much.
I am so very blessed.
I have thought often of your puddle analogy - you posted it to me awhile back about my H. We all have those puddle moments! (And he is becoming quite the limber guy - standing in doorways, feet in different rooms, trying to jump over puddles
Haha. Yes, they do become quite limber.
And yes, you have friends here who will cheer you on as you lace up your sneakers and take that running start - but who will also pick you up out of the puddle if you don't quite make it the first time, giving you that towel to dry off, and encourage you to try again.
Now you've made me cry.
Continue to think it through, doing what you need to do, feeling what you need to feel.
