I probably don't need to tell you that a lot of issues are addiction related. (My own brother told me last night he's using again. Sigh.) Good for you for being in counseling to contemplate and consider. It's good to consider, particularly if you find thoughts or actions that are getting you stuck.
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i dont tell them my secrets, but i dont expect them to do me wrong. however when they do me wrong, the trust is gone. for good. no hope of getting it back.
Hmm. Interesting. Maybe there's a solution somewhere in the middle?
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i think what it boils down to is more the fact that i dont trust myself?
That is some amazing insight, and you just may have brought up an issue that we should all contemplate. I think you're on to something here...
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i also feel that i should continue to make myself better everyday so that i deserve the woman of my dreams.. i dont know if that makes any sense..lol
Yes, it does. And you should believe that. I'm a firm believer that we should be with people who make us want to be better humans just by being with them. In fact, it's my ultimate litmus test with all my friendships now. I have plenty of acquaintances, and am happy with that. But the inner circle can only consist of those people who challenge me to be a better and happier Betsey. I sincerely hope you find this journey worthwhile and successful.
Good luck! I don't know if being in SD has any bearing on the types of women you meet. Just go on the notion that when it's your time, it's bound to happen!
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Betsey
